What I feel when I code
After months of anger, lack of motivation and a muddled mind, I get a call which made me sad. Sadness which cleared my mind... It made me remember how I learnt to code... and why I code... It wasn't through confidence or happiness where I started it was though sadness. It was a get away for me from all my worries.
I put away a technical blog for 2 months after I was anger a talk of mind was rejected. I spent days trying to write it, where in within an hour was enough when I was sad... Sadness doesn't cause me pain, it just shows me how unfair the world is and clears my mind. I have enough sad memories to keep me motivated for live.
No matter how many hobbies I start and put down, the one true thing that stayed with me is my code and my addition to computers. I trusted it will change my life and it always has, I still need to keep my sad memories and believe for a better tomorrow in an unfair world.